I have been asked to officiate my step-daughter's wedding. This is humbling for me to be the step mother and her father's wife. Not quite sure why this is humbling at this time but hopefully I will come to that understanding as I let my 'ego' go.
My daughters and my sister have a different relationship with me. They love me unconditionally. Some days they might like me better than other days, but I know they love me without question. This is a blessed space to sit in and just absorb.
Being a step-mother gives me a different role, a different learning curve. I have a tendency to enable people, to overpower them with my love, wanting to fix everything, make everything better. I have strong Italian blood that runs through my veins. I am a touchy feely kind of person. My daughter-in-law comes from Yorkshire parents. I know I would make her uncomfortable with all my hugs and kisses.
I am learning to step back and to allow. Each and every time I have rushed in to help and fix and love my children and grandchildren to bits so they would not hurt, their path changed. Different circumstances, same learning, just a little more difficult each and every time. My children have long passed the age of 18. They have children older than 18. My eldest son just turned 50 this year. I know and love that I will always be their mother but it's time to let go of the mothering or is that the smothering?
All that I give is given to myself.
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