To be honest there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. We are blessed/cursed with free choice. We may or may not awaken to what we consider to be 'more'. We often do not want the responsibility, the ability to respond to ourselves at this time. We are afraid of change. Even if our present life is full of pain. We are afraid we may become someone different than who we are with all our old perceived baggage. If we do not have all this pain, these past memories we drag behind us, who are we? What are we supposed to be doing? Who are we supposed to be?
Years ago I attended lectures at the University of Ottawa in the Department of Religious Studies. Two Jesuits who homesteaded in some desert in California were talking about living a 'spiritual' life. They said that being in a religious order was easy; you just have to obey, follow the rules.
Being in a relationship with another, with all the 'Zorba the Greek' trappings was one of the most difficult spiritual paths that awaken you at the deepest level. Goenka'ji', my Vipassana Meditation retreat master repeated the same teachings.
This changed my perception of my life. It was not in what I was doing that was important. It was in how I was feeling while I was doing it that changed everything.
When you meet anyone, remember it is a holy encounter. As you see him, you will see yourself ... for in him you will find yourself or lose yourself. - See more at: http://www.weboflove.org/courseinmiracles#sthash.nfs6sc7k.dpuf
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